The Puzzle

I will talk of a puzzle in my blog. Its a very complex puzzle. All parts are perfect and shining, but there is an element of apprenhension in each part. Each part wants to fit in its favourite place. Everyone wants to be a part of completed puzzle. Each part is equally good, but rather than looking at its own value, it is bothered about the other part. The puzzle is smiling at the pieces. It always knew that it was one puzzle. Blocks were cut out from it. Each piece has its place, still each part thought that it will find its place first. The parts forget that the puzzle is not complete till all parts find their place. After all the pieces are cut from it for a reason. :)

School dayz r back..

Reminds me of movie, "Sleepless in seattle." An avid sleeper, happy go lucky to hard working human. Thats the kind of transformation life is seeking from me. I am loving every moment of it. Have never stayed awake beyond 10 willingly, but time flies by here. Thats a b school. :)
Have never felt asleep while talking to anyone, but yesterday i fell asleep while talking to someone on phone, so here is the beginning. I always thought i can not sleep when a session is on, but my bheja was completely on to slide under the table while prof teaches. So, the naughty side is up. I am back to college.. :D

First Day in School.. :)

It was Noni’s first day in school. My brother, knowing that I am excited to see his reaction in school, took me alongwith. Looking at 3 people, accompanying the child, teacher said, he will never stay in school, but what the heck, when he has a whole trail of people to love him, prince will have his followers follow him. :) Amazing was the experience. He had never seen so many kids of his size and then there were fishes in aquarium. He was excited. Like all kids, he loves animals, he was happy in jim Corbett last week and was really amazed to see tiger in nainital zoo. ( I m not telling my kids that there is a zoo in Nainital, it requires a lot of climbing the hill and kids ride on your back and refuse to walk. All of us were almost dead by the time we got to see snow leopard in zoo. :( ). It was all fun until we left him with kids and teachers. When we went in after 10 minutes, he came running and hugged us. It was one moment, when I lost all brain that I had ever had. He was scared that we had left him alone. He was crying and the tears were of fear. Something which had never happened earlier, I did not know why did the teacher let so much fear settle into him. I was furious.
We got him back home. Talking about the same to my mum, she smiled. She said it’s the same thing everytime I let you or your bro go. I have brought you up. However much life demands out of you, you remain to be someone who had been extremely dependent on me when you were infant. When I left you for 2 hours in first school, I cried because I was not sure if world will love you the way I do. Then things settled in my brain and now it’s a change every year. Still, when I let you go to a new world, my fear is that world out there does not hurt you, not to see tears in your eyes. It’s the way emotions are.
I did not know what to infer. But thinking on the same, I am heading for a b school in two days. I am too old to cry, but I am sure that I feel what Noni feels. It’s a feeling of excitement and fear. I also feel what my family feels, that they are letting me go into a world which is not so protective of me. They are excited because it’s a step forward in life, but they also feel sad that I will have to stay awake for 20 hours and will have to take the pressure of competition. Like my bro said, why did you not opt for studio apartment? Have your meals properly. You have never stayed awake for 20 hours, do your best, but not at the cost of your health. I am still Noni for all. Finally, why Noni will go to school is, because he knows he can play with kids and his mum will come to take him back home. So, I will go ahead in life because I know I have a wonderful family which loves me. :)

Nothing has changed since age 2 till now.. :)