Bday, Some Losses, some Wins!!

Its my bday today, as usual i am happy and happy and i have no reason to be sooo happy, but i am happy. Things have changed and life has shown many colors. When i look back, i feel wierd. There is a lot that i have left behind and moved on, i cant compare and put figures to what was right or wrong, but then all i know is that i have survived these years and made some wonderful friends.
I want to talk about people who are closest to my heart, the gang of 5. Life was all about movies, pop corns, food, jokes and so much attachment. Everyone is around you when times are good, but here, i am talking about people who stayed awake for 24 hours with me because i dint know if i could ever close my eyes. They have been with me when i looked blank towards ceiling, without knowing what to talk for hours. People who have made me smile when i lost it somewhere. These are friends who read out GMAT notes to me over dinner, so that i could clear the exam because i could not read. People who called me 20 times a day to ensure that i was as good as life would want me to be.
I dont know how much was Nam's phone bill last year and i have no clue about flight charges, I dont know how many consulting assignments Nimish left for me, i had no clue what 3 hours in ISB meant when i bothered Mrins, i had absolutely no clue why did Sahil get all friends DVD every day and use "my" microwave for cooking when he did not even know how to cook, while cracking the stupidest jokes and yes vikrant and reena for the soups and movies.
Then there is a story of trek on which i slipped, one hand held me and said, we did not come here to die, just know that, and you will be out of danger. Indifferent to life and death, i asked, how different is death from life, its an illusion. Tak came the reply, its a difference of not having you around, and trust me, its a big difference. It means no pop corns, no movies, no jokes and all in all cant think of life with anyone missing, so just shut up and keep your boring philosophy to yourself. :D

You know what pals, on this bday i want to tell you all that i love you a lot and when i look back at my life last year, i see the picture incomplete without you all. I always thought i was too practical and independent to feel strongly about situations and people, but i lost the battle to the love and care that you all showered upon me. This one year of my life goes out to you all. Cheers- Namita, Mrinal, Nimish, Sahil, Vikrant & Reena.

To all those wonderful moments when we laughed like crazy, to all those fights which made us discover that its ok to say sorry but very difficult to stay quite, and to all those dishes which were inedible, but still fought for and finally to a special moment when Nimish bandaged my whole hand just because i had a small cut on my finger, not because he cared, but because he was too lazy to get the pair of scissors. *^*$^%#########. I know it all, still i will manage my life with you all. :P

Phew!!

Tring Tring!! Hellow.. hey.. howdy? yes, i am fine, but you dont sound the same?
Hmmm... and i think i dont. Life is too complicated. Get up in morning, ( after 5 hours of sleep for someone who has always slept for 8 hours), study( someone who has always read novels and watched tv and travelled), assignments( someone who hated word docs and excels). You know life is really not the same and sound had changed to compensate.
So, am i not enjoying it? Oh yes, i am. I like all kind of challenges. Anything that stretches me beyond my comfort zone. Just that sometime you just want to be lazy and then dont want to use brain and blah blah blah.
But then isnt it a fact of life, as you move up in life, you leave a lot behind, incidentally this time, it turned out to be my sleep and leisure readings and hours of talks with my frenz and those travel trips to nowhere..
Never mind, one more year and i get back to my lazy self. Phew!! ONE WHOLE YEAR OF SLEEPLESS DAYS AND NIGHTS!! Huh.. What the heck, its 2 AM already and i am not waking up before 10AM tomorrow. Some decisions you take in life. :D