Welcome 2010!

Just back from party at Jinie's place. Affectionate he is, no one can say no to him.. Disclaimer: Not many people know each other here, just a crowd of strangers, so dance and be merry.. The second perfect thing was the host whose house was actually used for the party.. He is the best possible entertainer anyone would have come across. Some people are so lively that they can infuse life is anyone who even brushes against them.. :D Music was coming from the laptop of host, a hut like dance floor.. Songs like Scilia, kajrare, punjabi numbers.. Ok!! i know there is no trend, but then who cares.. :) 2 hours of good fun and yes we have those cheers smiley happy pics captured.. a new year with unknowns and yet so lovely..

N, S.. I miss you guys as always.. You have been with me since my childhood, the years when we had no money for parties, no fancy clothes, no loud music, just the peanuts, gajjak, rajai, some games and lots of innocence and love for each other.. Every little thing made us happy.. You know what? Nothing can beat that. Right at mid night, amidst loud music, all that i could think of is those wonderful days.. Its not the perfection, its the little fun talks we shared, dreams we nourished and plans we made.. This year sees N in Los Angeles, S in London and me in Blore.. i am happy that we all have moved on for better in life, our plans did not go waste, but we should rewind and relive atleast one day this year. :)

Bye Bye 2009

My Dear Blog!! Love you, you have been the cutest of all things i value.. And as i bid goodbye to 2009, i want you to know that you will remain to be my fav. So, do you know what did i get on new year eve?? A t shirt "I will try to be nicer to you, if you try to be smarter".. A lovely yellow t shirt saying " happy fish"... A pink eye pencil and lots of other stuff.. How much i love being a girl.. :) I loved the year that went by, and i thank God for the wonderful moments he gifted me with.. I am sure 2010 will be even better, after all its my life, it has to get better and better and better.. :) And yes, i am heading for the party, else we would have had a nice long walk down the memory lane..

Sorry, i forgot to tell you about the earring!! they are good too.. give me loads next year plz... :D

Addiction..

They say nothing succeeds like success. It gives you the kind of high which diminishes all other aspects of life. But then how about someone who has always been on a high?? Is it not dangerous to face the fact that life is not always same?? I met someone like that today, who probably failed for the first time in life.. Totally unable to let go.. I somehow lost respect for all the glory around the being.. If you cant take success and failure with equal grace then you are not educated and you are not matured enough to lead and grow.. Life will never show same colors, it has to give fair deal to all, if the deal is tilted towards your side, feel good, but dont take it for granted.. Success is niether a habit nor an addiction, it can very well go as it comes.. Do your best and understand that sometimes others best might beat yours.. If you are anywhere near successful learn to smile and improve and grow, dont give up..

New Year Grows...

I was wondering what possibly could be the best things to do on new year??
- Travel - Visit some cool destinations
- Party - Choose the best party in town and just go and have fun
- Cake at home - This might sound boring to most, but this is how i spent most of my new years in childhood days, watching the new year programme on TV, cuddled in a rajai, cake and food and with papa.. Trust me nothing in this world can match the welcoming new year that way....

So, i start with Travel - one of the most favoured destinations in India on new year is Goa and 2 years back we went to a place called karvar near Goa to welcome the year.. Since it was slightly off Goa and we went for a camping trip, it was far away from madding crowd and an aamzing experience. The water came till our camps during high tide and the dance floor was right by the river side. It was awesome fun. Got to do with the people i went with and also the location we chose. Next year was ISB, and yes we did go to the cruise party(dont ask me where was the cruise:P), the ship had a dance floor, NO, it wasnt great, but we all together totally enjoyed what was on offer.. :) Though not on new year, but this jungle resort type of place in Dandeli could be another place to visit during new year.. The place is again established on river side and in general very calm and peaceful. Kerela could be a place to go to, but i dont know why, i feel its too talked about nd everyone is always there.. Next could be LEH, Ladakh.. wooooo.. i so badly want to visit ladakh.. Next Year, i am going there for sure..

Party- So, this is usually the most difficult part.. You want to stay in city, you dont want to stay at home and you dont want to go to a party which is not your type of music and which has cheap and drunk crowd.. Difficult choice.. Specially music can kill the point.. If the DJ is bad then you have almost spoiled your evening.. This happened with me once.. Some of the friends got booking done.. I followed like a loyalist.. I realized the music was bad, food was even worse and people were looking at you as if thats their only focus in life.. Finally, we decided to move out of the place and come back to home, watch movie in my friend's home theatre, ordered domino's pizza and talked our heart out about everything..

So, whats the safest bet?? I want to go back home and spend time with my family, play with my nephew and begin new year with people i love the most.. However, if that does not materialize, i would want to stay with my best pals and probably welcome the new year with them peacefully, does not have to be a fancy travel or party this time, i want to save these moments for life..

3 idiots!!

This movie is a must watch for some of the most cheeful moments. Best fun was, today was another day, when i reached the movie hall last minute with friends. I had got the tickets done online and the transaction was successful, while the money was taken from my account, i did not have th tickets booked. I have a simple philosophy in life if i have come to watch the movie, i better watch it. I just told the ticket counter guy, we need to watch the movie, whats the option and i just have 10 mins. The guy guided me to a person on front counter. I had a small round of negotiation with him, he directed me to a small gallery behind the cinema and i discovered that behind running of all the gold class and super hot malls, there are simple doors where people sit to make these operations smooth. On the oldest posible computer, he booked some tickets for an audi which was added last minute to adjust such goof ups. I was amazed at the customer service of PVR today.
I ran with the confirmation numbers got the tickets and we barged into the movie hall. After all the run, early morning wake up, the movie was every penny worth it. Amir khan was at his best and the humour was a total connect. All in all, must watch and yes please do goof up with systems, thats when you get to know what keeps the perfect systems running. I saw a lot of things which back the running of PVR, thanks to the goof up.

The Countdown..

So, this was a fun night.. nothing new.. as always, nandi, shiks, me and trust me aunty is spoilt since she has come here, she laughs her heart out with the crazy gang.. (Caution!! We can make a corpse beg to Hell Master to give him some life to laugh.. ) The topic of discussion was the fact that i had booked the ticket of movie 3 idiot for 10 AM on a holiday.. :D (Yours truly, you have to be sincere and on time when it comes to movies, akhir life mein har cheez time to time honi chahiye).. Well, the issue is - the movie is shot in IIMB, i like Amir khan( no, i am loyal to Ranbir Kapur and Tom Cruise, and.. OK!! I know i am using the word loyal, but then i like all, i always like all things without bias.. all goooood things i mean.. :P).. and then its supposed to be a fun movie.. I mean, its ok to getup at 7 AM on a holiday and watch movie.. Its all alright!! Why do you live and earn? ( I am not expecting the reply to be " to watch movies", but then something like that.. ).. But then i got into my serious convincing mode, such that anyone would ahve thought that the only motive to live is to watch this movie at 10 AM in morning, if you dont do that world will come to an end before 2012.. Shiks just gave up, knowing me she knew i could make a case around it and this probably is the best movie anyone could have ever watched even before its ratings came out.. having settled the movie part, we moved on to my relocation part.. I mean when will i go, what date, how, from where? Imagine! Did i ever think so much about life?? I will go, one day, somewhere, sometime to someplace from someplace.. The food has to be asian veg and yes i dont drink alcohol (thats kind of certain :P, some things i know, dont have to struggle with that) ..

By the end of the day, we all live to have fun and sleep with a smile, and i have seen that most arbit and senseless things have maximum value in life.. I know these days are may be last 15 days of my stay here, but i will live them to the fullest..

Here this day of my life is dedicated to my fav song these days - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eTuY6JCsK-M

"Did you notice the Alisha's voice in this song??"

Change..

They say change is inevitable, a part of life.. I kind of understand it and adapt to situations.. But some places give you such fond memories that despite knowing everything you want to stick on to it.. Bangalore from may to dec 2009 is one such part of my life.. In Kris Gartner's style i would say, "this part of my life is called happyness". :) I loved my batch and everyone in it from the bottom of my heart for all the smiles and laughter which i so badly needed in life..15 of us from different IIMs and ISBs. No connection to begin with and slowly we became a part of life.. Lunch together, houses around, office discussions and help at every step. I have this nasty habit of asking the same thing 100 times, i am sure people thought that either i was dumb or i irritated them, but they took it with a smile.. Its getting over, all are moving out.. Everytime someone goes, i have this feeling that its all getting over and somewhere i wish i could stop it but then i know things have to move on..
It was not just the batch, nandini, Shikha, my neighbour, hampi travel group.. everyone just added to the memories.. The thought of getting away is quite challenging, the change i want to resist, but my mind says you need to move on in life.. Everyday night for one hour i struggle with this..I know things never remain same, but these were good times and you just want them forever.. Future's uncertainity is always difficult on us.. I know on papers everything about my future is good.. But i will miss the fun i had here, i am not sure if i will get so many people of similar mental level to talk to and crack jokes with.. My home which was always a weekend away for me, will be very far..
I am resisting a change which is good for my life .. everyday i just pray to God and think that some miracle will happen and same life will be replicated in my new location or he will just keep me here.. something.. God, "This part of my life is called praying to you, i really really leave it all on you as always.. "

The Love you case study!!

It was an amusing discussion with an old pal. This guy's dad was in army and he was a to the core flirt since probably he was born. :P.. Suddenly, he calls me after some 5 years and says i love you.. I thought it was some time pass trying to call, i said ok, thanks for loving a stranger, makes me feel good.. HANG ON, GARY!! xyz here.. :D.. Oops, why dint you tell me years back that you loved me buddy? Not that i would have liked to acknowledge it even then, but you would have come out of this nasty habit of joking at an early age.. Hee hee, turn around, i just saw you in spencers, i am standing 20 feet away from you and seriously i love you.. AWEEE... no for this surprise i love you too.. It was after years that we were meeting and it was a surprise to the core..
Got talking talking talking.. Flirtoo always has many stories to tell as if there was a huge queue of women ready to die for him kinds but in the end he is always single and ready to mingle. Well, nothing had really changed in his life, he had some 3 girl friends when he was studying in IIM and then when he started working 3 more and finally he was still single and ready to mingle.. :D I said Boss what goes wrong with all the women, they just cant stand you beyond 2 months :P?? (OK, he is fun loving, i can crack such jokes with him :)) He thinks for some time.. He goes, yaar this looks like a case study to me, the i love you case study.. I say i love you to 100 girls, hit rate is lets say 10%, conversion ratio is lets say 2% and then in the end final result is 0%. What should XYZ do to get a final result??

Idiot, what did you do in IIM? Wasted your life? Try and understand the customer segment, your sales pitch is always good, the services and value add part is zero.. With history of 100 gal friends you look like second Tiger Wood in making.. The case is solved, the final result might remain zero for the rest of your life, give your humbling past record which scares me to death..

He totally nodded his head and bought me an ice cream for all the gyaan.. (Ok, i get paid for all my arbit gyaan like a true MBA.. :P).. The love you case study was solved and i am so happy, i have a old lost buddy in town.. :D

Difficult to let go..

There are some things in life which become an intergral part of life and even before you realize you just know that they are difficult to let go. One doll that i bought assuming i will get a rank 1 but i got a rank 2, you know how much i loved it for years?? My cousin broke an eye of my tall doll and me, generally known to be a non violent and non controversial kid, just gave him two tight slaps and did not know if even that was enough to cover up the loss. :P The broken doll stayed in my home till i went for my graduation and no one dared to touch it as they thought this could awaken the hidden violence in me. :D
Similarly, my best pals, i love them. Everyone knows i love them, and i never thought why and when that happened, i just know that sometimes it hurts to see them off on airport. Its not something new, i have been accustomed to letting go, but now i realize that with all the efforts, sometimes it is difficult to let people go.
Family, dearest to me. I have been away from my home for years now. Everytime i have to visit home, i am excited just the way my 4 year old nephew is and till date something within kills when i board the flight back to work.
India, i have been born and brought up here. I love every struggle involved, every problem at hand. Thats been my way of living and life for years now. Its time when i might have to move and i just know that its so difficult to let it go. I remember crying when my cousin broke the eye of my doll, dad consoled me and told that he will get a new one. I said its not about a better doll or new doll, i have invested time and love in it, it hurts to leave somethings you loved so much. Dad understood, he got me a 100 dolls after that, but the hurt doll never lost its place in my home. He always kept it at top and told me there are somethings difficult to let go and its good to come back to them. You dont leave things when you find better ones, you only love them more because they have made themselves imp enough in your life to let go.

The runs between happening and not happening. The desire to do and not to do is a hairline difference. Sometimes, all you know if life is," i will give everything my best shot and till last breath" and you just know that if you want something you want it. You know the target and rest everything will find its way. I saw a lady scolding her kid few days back in a super market and typically using the word "Stubborn". I had been watching the kid, particularly because he was cute and i liked his attitude. He was observant and with cautious thinking and using rationale he picked up a box of chocolate which he thought was small and should not be an issue for his mom. However, for all good reasons as per her mom he should not have had chocolates. :( He kept quite for sometime and then lay straight on the floor with chocolate in hand and focus to eat. Mum scolded him again, this time he took the chocolate out and put it in his mouth with eyes sht as her very well knew that a slap was coming his way. :D.. I dont know, people may call him stubborn, i totally loved it. kids have this undying power and focus and they have fool proof strategies to attain what they want. As we grow, we just lose the so called "stubbornness" to get what we want. I think this hair line journey between happening and not happening is decided by the element of wanting it till end sometimes...

No solstice for me.. :(

This is my first solstice after passing out of isb. I could not go. It was my biometric test for London visa. I hate international travel and locations and everything about it. :( I dont know what i have mised, i would have so loved to be back on campus and among my people. Never mind, one of my batch mates who could not make it to solstice as well decided to make things better for us. Aur kuch nahi to movie sahi.. if not the cool DJ and dance floor then a dinner may be.. ISB, i so totally love you, it hurts when i have to let go of you.. :(

Boredom at its best.

What do you do when you have to go for a party when no one is your age, you have no common topic to talk about and you just know what you had so many better things to do than sit here and look in air??
Well, you dont really have a choice. Ok, things start getting better, there is music, and though i wont say i love cricket, but even that looked interesting to me. I finally thought i should just explore the business model of the place in question and see how things work. And last but not least, when ething else fails, all hopes rest on food. :D
Things were not that bad, there was a very desi dance floor, loud boxes of music, DJ no one will dance with in general, but then it all looked so heavenly. And i saw a huge gang of ppl, OK, they looked equally bored, but then better off. Dancing as always was awesome fun and kind of took away some frustration out of life. I came back home, tired, changed clothes and hit the bed thinking what was it all about? Sometimes, you just wish you could rewind the life and start living it all over again and could take better decisions like not going to the party and looking in air.

Funny..

It was a sunday and i had to buy some urgent stuff. I had almost working weekend, so by the time i gathered myself, it was 6 o clk. I headed straight to the market. While coming back i took an auto. The auto driver seemed to be diving like formula one racer, missing hits by an inch and though generally i dont get scared, but so many times i survived Yam's land that finally i told him, "Bhaiya, dheere chala lo plz.".. HERE is the killer, "MADAM, mein pehle ambulance chalata tha, aise hi chalata tha, dheer nahi chalta, marne walo ke pass time kaha hota hai itna".. I did not know what to say.. I shifted myself to the center of the auto and kind of wondered why the hell did i have to choose him of the trail of autos infront of me.. On lighter note, i totally enjoyed the roller coaster ride..

The land beneath my feet..

This is one off cases in life.. The land beneath my feet was just swiped away in a moment.. I was speechless and for one of the few times in life i did not negotiate and question because person infront was brutually honest.. I did not know what was it all about but i could see the strength of character and determination which i thought exists only in books.. Honesty and passion to do something in life which was not something i had seen in many.. I realized that you might have never had tea all your life because you dont like it, but then there will be some people who will not ask you for it and say this is all i have to offer you and you will know that this is something you cant deny because thats really all that anyone could ever offer to you..
I was asked my a frend to help a frend setup some new venture.. I am not a pro, i thought i will be just one brain added, but i will try.. The discussion went on for 3 hours.. During the discussion i just realized that its so much fun to talk to honest and passionate people.. There is a balance of opinion, there is acceptance and challenging.. And then there is so much of care for every word and learning and denial.. I was not working for a multi million dollar firm with no value for time and effort, i was talking to a human who has dreams and then the person realized that i had been sitting for 3 hours and all that was on offer was tea which could be prepared.. I was asked for tea and i know i dont have tea, but i could not say no, there were no vending machines, will this person make tea for me?? Yes, no work is small and no human is less than special.. As i was handed over the cup of tea, i realized that it was the most precious drink i have ever had..
Time for me to be ruthless.. What if you FAIL?? I dont work to fail and frankly failure does not know me.. I graduated from top b school in world, worked for the best firm, took a call on taking my own path, not to faill.. If i were to fail all these people would not have taken a chance on me and you would not have spent the time that u did and if you were to fail i would not have talked to you for more than 10 mins.. trust me we cant fail.. we can only do well or very well.. HMMM. they look like words to me, data?? Market?? The person opened the plan and i saw the kind of details which left me aghast..
Who did i meet? A character from a novel, or was it a real human? I have not seen such strong elements of confidence, intelligence, honesty and humility in one person at such a young age and with accomplishments to die for. I just realized, there are some people who will take away the land beneath your feet, not with the fancy things, but sheer stroke of honesty and no frills to offer.. Hats Off !!